Steups...
i been petite all my life..
and BLACK girl petite...is waaayyyyyyyy different than NON black girl petite..
{sorry if i offend anyone]
But let me break it down..
what it means...is that Im a D CUP
and i have 36-38 hips..lol...
and my thighs are ham hocks ...that narrow into salami calves...
my waist is 20 something..
so...in essence ..
I have curves...even though im four foot nine...
I am not the first...im not gonna be the last
SO WHY THE JAIL all the petite clothes made for ashley kate olsen???
Huh?
Why i have to decide what gonna fit today?
my hips...or my waist..
NO i don't have a flash fixation..
its just if i want the shirt to fit my waist....i kinda have to sacrifice those two top buttons..
Thank god im kinda crafty so i can do homemade alterations..
and No i didn't INTEND to be stepping on my pants cuffs...
cause they didn't make my length

SOMEBODY

do a clothing line for curvy girls..
I don't wanna wear a jacket that look like the spanish housekeeper coat in the movies..
and please adjust the cut so its flattering..
so sisters like me don't have to wear leggings and brazilian jeans forever..

Thank you... and good night.

[Dont listen to floetry while drinking wine on the back balcony in the darkness...YOUVE BEEN WARNED]



You know sometimes we ummm, we don't recognize our dreams inside
our reality and uh other times we're not aware of exactly
what's real ya know we walk around day dreaming but the sunshine, the sunshine always is.... and I

[Chorus:]
I just wanna see my lovely sunshine(Sunshine)
I just wanna bring back all of my blue skies
And if you take away my rainbow I will cry(cry)
Give me back my sunshine

Dreaming my state of being and I see you smiling youi're so happy just laughing and standing strong I'm missing you right
here Listen to my tears I'm waking up to skies so gray
Needing you to brighten up my day

Ok listen catch your breath cool out you need to calm down (that's right)
Concentrate don't go making all your time run out
See your ok it looks much worse than it really is,
and you'll pull through come on you know how we be doing this
It's me and you yo, you promised you can't pull out now,
We're friends for life so you can't just sell me out
We shared a lot but you know we'll see just so much more
Our wedding day and the children that we prayed for

[Chorus]

I used to depend on your rides to show me the way that I should go
My reality is blurry I'm afraid of being all alone
Your light has been my guide throughout the good and bad
I wish that I had spent a little more attention to my one and only sunshine

Listen, I'd never leave you yo, I sweared on my grave
Damn what's that I'm feeling dizzy kinda getting faint
But it ain't nothing didn't sleep that much last night
From watching over you but none less I'm cool I'm fine
I said I'm feeling fine so back up off me I'm alright
I'm here to see my friends and what's up with that blinding light
Said I don't need to lie down I don't need your help right now
What's up with all the noises all the running round
You've got it wrong I'm not the one who needs the help in here
Yo, what's up with you, you're crying I see tears
Yo, what's going on don't leave please don't take her out
Said I don't understand I'm kinda feeling scared now
I said it's getting hard to breathe getting hard to see
\I'm not too sure anymore what's going on with me
Please bring her back connect me talk just one more time
But it's too late the last exhale is mine

I came into my office this morning...
regular time...
and found that my entire space had been RIFFLED
draws searched,
desk pad lifted..
in box sorted through...
and I felt so Immediately violated...so upset...
Ive been at this company 4 plus years...
we're a small staff of 5 that does the work...realistically of 18...
seriously..
In your department...there is only YOU!..
its powerful and crushing..
I had the experience of handling 20,000.00 in cash ..lol.. counting it.. and taking it to the bank..
and handle all the monetary transactions here..
and on most days.. i love it here...
TODAY..
a colleague....who is not my superior in position...
My boss is the owner..
I have no supervisor...
A colleague who is my superior only because she has worked here for 15 years.....
felt it was ok to rifle through my desk...
because she wanted to prove herself not the one at fault...
she wanted to prove me the one who messed up...and took advantage of the
thirty minutes lap in our arrival times at work...
so search the BROWN GIRLS desk for a check ........for 19.32
that was mailed to us in March of 2008
that the ISSUING company realized had not been cashed...
and wanted to send us a replacement....
MARCH 200FUCKING08
so

she searched my office...
MINE
for it..

I cant stop fucking crying...