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Cliviawrites
[From a blog that I'm phasing out]
I wonder sometimes if people act a certain way to make sure that they "appear" to be this person in your eyes. I would hope that my friends don't do that.
Mere acquaintances i dont care about.....but i would hate to think that the people i treasure for who they are ....are pretending to be who i THINK they are...
sigh...in all things...
Be yourself.... that way expectations for and of you will always be realistic.
I wonder sometimes if people act a certain way to make sure that they "appear" to be this person in your eyes. I would hope that my friends don't do that.
Mere acquaintances i dont care about.....but i would hate to think that the people i treasure for who they are ....are pretending to be who i THINK they are...
sigh...in all things...
Be yourself.... that way expectations for and of you will always be realistic.
So..
He says he loves me..
But lied to me about where he’s been
And what and WHO he’s doing…
In one hypocritical breathe
Asking me to be patient..
While he’s fucking another
Accuses me of lying
While, without exhaling, he does the same
But insists that he loves me
Fuck Love
HE can see and sleep with another…
But I cannot
Yet he insists he loves me
Fuck Love
Swears he’s different but hurts me just the same
Fuck Love
I wish I could erase everything in my heart,
Wipe it clean so I feel NOTHING when I see him...
Believe nothing that he says
Forget that I thought we had a future or promise
He fucked her and then came home to me...
I feel like a dirty, used, stupid, naïve idiot...
Discussed it with his friend now I have to face their eyes
Betrayed
Again
Broken
Again
If you loved
Wasn’t I worth that extra thought or word?
If you loved me
Wouldn’t you give me that FUCKING CHOICE NOT MAKE IT FOR ME...?
I’m aching to be loved and enjoyed
For someone to hold my heart and cherish it...
To look over at someone and know
That their heart whispers my name even when I’m not there...
To know I’ll be honored today and tomorrow and forever,
Honor...For the gem that I am...
If what you want is to be free..
If what you want is connectionless physicality
And vapid conversations about bling and brands,
Ambitionless Baby Mamas
Who can’t teach your child the difference between being a woman and a lady
If you would rather break the heart of who loves you..
Than Honor the grace that she has brought you..
You should Go…
Fuck Love
He says he loves me..
But lied to me about where he’s been
And what and WHO he’s doing…
In one hypocritical breathe
Asking me to be patient..
While he’s fucking another
Accuses me of lying
While, without exhaling, he does the same
But insists that he loves me
Fuck Love
HE can see and sleep with another…
But I cannot
Yet he insists he loves me
Fuck Love
Swears he’s different but hurts me just the same
Fuck Love
I wish I could erase everything in my heart,
Wipe it clean so I feel NOTHING when I see him...
Believe nothing that he says
Forget that I thought we had a future or promise
He fucked her and then came home to me...
I feel like a dirty, used, stupid, naïve idiot...
Discussed it with his friend now I have to face their eyes
Betrayed
Again
Broken
Again
If you loved
Wasn’t I worth that extra thought or word?
If you loved me
Wouldn’t you give me that FUCKING CHOICE NOT MAKE IT FOR ME...?
I’m aching to be loved and enjoyed
For someone to hold my heart and cherish it...
To look over at someone and know
That their heart whispers my name even when I’m not there...
To know I’ll be honored today and tomorrow and forever,
Honor...For the gem that I am...
If what you want is to be free..
If what you want is connectionless physicality
And vapid conversations about bling and brands,
Ambitionless Baby Mamas
Who can’t teach your child the difference between being a woman and a lady
If you would rather break the heart of who loves you..
Than Honor the grace that she has brought you..
You should Go…
Fuck Love
