I'm dealing with a Loss..
I didnt consider it a loss before..
more of a Morphing of one type of relationship into another..
Just as Important ...and meaningful..but different..
I realize though ...that the dynamic has changed...
On my part too.. at least...
because I'm..well honestly..reluctant to be as OPEN as i used to be...
Because.. its not my PLACE??
I am UNSURE of my place...and don't want to take liberties that aren't mine to take..
so i guess i just wait in the awkward gap..for the boundaries to be defined to me...
And remember what used to be behind the wall