Soo stressed ...
so tense...
so closed off to the world ..
that my brain hurts...my teeth hurt..
i feel like i can trust no one with the burdens of my anxiety..
i cant lay my burdens down on anyone...
i dont want to infect them with the malaise that hangs over me like a cloud...
in every area..
there is uncertainty and doubt and disappointment...
pressure to perform and produce..
no respite in sight...
34 has not been a good year for me so far...
i had such great hopes for it..
i pray its a transitional thing..
i see only upheaval coming in the next couple months..
i pray i have the strength to deal with it...
i rely on me...and my abilities...
theyve done me well in the past...
i hope they continue to in this uncertain future..
so tense...
so closed off to the world ..
that my brain hurts...my teeth hurt..
i feel like i can trust no one with the burdens of my anxiety..
i cant lay my burdens down on anyone...
i dont want to infect them with the malaise that hangs over me like a cloud...
in every area..
there is uncertainty and doubt and disappointment...
pressure to perform and produce..
no respite in sight...
34 has not been a good year for me so far...
i had such great hopes for it..
i pray its a transitional thing..
i see only upheaval coming in the next couple months..
i pray i have the strength to deal with it...
i rely on me...and my abilities...
theyve done me well in the past...
i hope they continue to in this uncertain future..
I wrote these lyrics for a song i heard...
so instead of deleting them....im posting them here..:0
so instead of deleting them....im posting them here..:0
I cyah believe he right there next to me
Perfection in front of mi face
Is Push and pull
Hide and chase
I cyah believe he right there next to me
And I don’t know what to say
The two of us running away
I tried to hide the way I feel
But it all over mi face
This game we playing don’t feel like no game
I want to tell him that my love Is real..
But no..
It cyah go so
Cause I been down this road before ..
And he’s a man
He goh break your heart and leave you crying..
He’s a man…
Fling you like a salt prune seed when the flavor gone..
Blooming like a pouii tree under his reflection
but the Rainy season does end……
and your fear is the psalm that you sing in the end..
I cyah take the chance
I cant do the dance
This love feel too ancient
Too perfect too patient…
The risk is my heart
I cant play the part…
But my heart it still reaching…
For his love it beseeching..
