Im learning really quickly that silence can work so well to say what you want to say.
In these days of accidental deaths, when people or things can be taken away from you in the flash of an eye, when the thing that seems so achingly important to you at that moment can just disappear....shouldnt your energies be focused on your own growth and what is best for yourself and your family??
Is pride such an issue that you have to continue a grudge or war that noone else seems to care about?

for those non Stephen King readers.....slippage is the gradual disintegration of something...so slow that you barely notice it......it happens right in front of your eyes....but you dont notice it....till you can't fix it.... Young enough to know that SOME things are far behind you...Old enough to finally be aware of your own potential, purpose....and experienced enough to acknowledge that the things you had planned to do since you were a kid may never happen...

sigh..

I hate this friggin weather..

When you hate, the only person who SUFFERS is you because half the people you hate DON'T KNOW IT and the other half DON'T CARE. That is something that I have come to learn and I think it's something to live by.

So to "anyone", anywhere who think you hate/dislike me I say this to you:

There is no need to talk about me because I'm not gonna hear it....
No need to look at me like you're trying to intimidate me cause I won't see you anyway,

So don't waste your time because either I don't know you hate me or I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK...hahaha (Y'all know who you are).

Couldn’t have given you more.
I tried to love you like you loved me.
Maybe for wrong reasons....maybe.
At first it was beautiful.
Every girl has a fairytale.
But then you wake up and see it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.
It turned into screaming days and solo nights.
Just wasn’t right (yeah...)
I didn’t really wanna see you,
was happy when you were leaving yeah...
I liked how it felt when I was by myself.
And that’s the way I wanna be,
So please, don’t beg and plead,
Just let it be. Just let it be...

Chorus
I gotta go. I gotta leave.
So please don’t make it hard for me.
I’ve given up, I’m tired of love, I gotta let it go...(2x)

Couldn’t have given you more,
Gave you everything.
There wasn’t anything that you were denied (yeah).
But you should never give it all...
‘cause sometimes there’s nothing left but bitterness and regret, and it just ain’t worth it.
‘Cause then there’s the sudden change
Out of nowhere, it seems.
Never know I could be so mean, But that’s just how far you pushed me (yeah).
You say it just isn’t fair and you didn’t know.
You need to take responsibility for your own, ‘cause you’re grown.
And you known (yeah)

Chorus
I gotta go. I gotta leave.
So please don’t make it hard for me. I’ve given up, I’m tired of love, I gotta let it go...(2x)

Now I take the blame for trying to stay and work it out.
Shoulda left before it got complicated,
Shoulda left when there was still some happiness.
Yes I take the blame for having faith in the relationship.
I thought it made me complete,
but the truth is, I’m complete without it.

Chorus
I gotta go.
I gotta leave.
So please don’t make it hard for me. I’ve given up, I’m tired of love, I gotta let it go...(2x)

[From a blog that I'm phasing out]

I wonder sometimes if people act a certain way to make sure that they "appear" to be this person in your eyes. I would hope that my friends don't do that.
Mere acquaintances i dont care about.....but i would hate to think that the people i treasure for who they are ....are pretending to be who i THINK they are...

sigh...in all things...

Be yourself.... that way expectations for and of you will always be realistic.

Any person who cannot acknowledge that you too are capable of dreams, Any person too selfish to see that you too have a soul, and a voice, and a vision for your lifeAnyone who cannot step out of themselves and see that......should be walked away from with no regret...only REJOICING!!!

May you be content knowing you are a child of God.
Let this presence settle into our bones, and allow your soul the freedom to
sing, dance, praise and love.

My sister is Renee. She’s four years younger than I am….and we look nothing alike. I’d like to think our personalities are similar, but they’re not. We’ve grown tremendously close in these last years…in fact I don’t function too well without her.

Of all the people in the world that I can understand or can understand me, it’s her. She may not understand the motivations behind my feelings, but she knows what is WITHIN my personality and can predict my responses and moods and reactions.

It’s the same with me. She is not a difficult person to understand…..more like complex….intricate….something that escapes even our mother sometimes.

People believe its something that distances her from other people. If they knew her…they would know that her distance… is her reaching out to you. She steps away when she needs you to step close. Strange? She is quite capable of coming out of whatever funk she’s in. She can more than adequately take care of herself and make hard decisions. And without a doubt she will do what her heart tells her to.

But the “mood’ is an indication. And, depending on the situation….and HOW WELL YOU KNOW HER…you “choose’ to approach and probe, or …jus leave her alone. She’s fiercely loyal to those she care about….and like me, is emotionally devastated when human beings turn out to be …you know…humans.

Anyways…I missed her today…again. I need a kick in the butt….she’s good at those

for those non Stephen King readers.....slippage is the gradual disintegration of something...so slow that you barely notice it......it happens right in front of your eyes....but you dont notice it....till you can't fix it.... Young enough to know that SOME things are far behind you...Old enough to finally be aware of your own potential, purpose....and experienced enough to acknowledge that the things you had planned to do since you were a kid may never happen...

sigh..

I hate this friggin weather

When you hate, the only person who SUFFERS is you because half the people you hate DON'T KNOW IT and the other half DON'T CARE. That is something that I have come to learn and I think it's something to live by.

So to "anyone", anywhere who think you hate/dislike me I say this to you:

There is no need to talk about me because I'm not gonna hear it....
No need to look at me like you're trying to intimidate me cause I won't see you anyway,

So don't waste your time because either I don't know you hate me or I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK...hahaha (Y'all know who you are)

Rapture’s self is three parts sorrow.
Although we must die to-morrow,
Losing every thought but this;
Torn, triumphant, drowned in bliss.

Elation...

Ain't that the truth??