Tied...
still tied
tongue tied..
I cant hope for justice...
i cant pray for peace...
i cant aspire for fairness...
even if i live my life as they ask....Im NOT free
im lucky
i must rely on chance to survive..
I cant tell my men to be MEN...
because even if they do the RIGHT thing..
they can still be killed..on  a whim...
I cant have justice for their deaths....
so..
I have nothing...
i am nothing.....
we are nothing..
a whim..a breath..
an allowed happenstance...



hope. Less

To maintain the PG rating of this blog ...the word I REALLY wanna use has been changed to......well CHEESE!!

What the CHEESE???
Aren't I a human being too?
On top of that fact that I'm slightly human... I'm of the emotionally sensitive kind.
I don't need much.  A CHEESING HELLO!
A "hi..thinking about you"
A "hey you" YOU MATTER!!

What??? and then you wanna tell me stop being CHEESING Super woman??
See why I can't?
When I rely on someone..it leaves the fortress weak... Weak Fortresses get mounted and Conquered!
CHEESE NO!

Huh?

I'm such a CHEESING separate species that I don't need for you to say Hello? how are you?
What?? u assume I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME?   ALL the CHEESING time??

Steups.

 CHEESE you.

has written FILTH with FILTH on the walls..
doo doo from a SHIT HEAD..

He destroyed even the children's clothes
the kids are shaking and crying and asking what happens if he breaks out of jail and comes after us?
The smallest one cant stop shaking..
His head is swiveling like a bobble head..

they can't stay in their home tonight because one door has been kicked to pieces by the police..
and CSI is inside dusting everything..

The land lady..[this is hilarious[ is screaming at the police that she wants them out NOW]
Thats what she cares about right now..

They have no where to sleep tonight...
I offer my living room floor and couch..

She has no clothes..
he's ripped them and pissed all over them
the kids have no clothes he threw bleach on them..

They have to go talk to detectives now..
and get this...

She's worried about who will explain everything to HIS Mother..

see this is why i know i should step back..
WHY is she even thinking about him? and His mother?
why isn't she worrying about her own kids..
Where the FUCK is her anger?
why is she worrying about him "destroying his life"
and not FURIOUS that he has destroyed hers??
WHY
why am i more angry than she is..
FUCK ..