I've been cheating on Blogger with tumblr.

Probably because it was just easy to reblog someone else...to use a picture to display how i was feeling than to make MYSELF WRITE ABOUT IT...

but its not working...i need to vent..

i used to think this blog was like everything else ..

a kinda popularity contest...especially since i know who my readers were..well some of you..

figured out ...recently...that its not about you guys...with all due respect....

i need to vent....so i dont combust..i dont know if that makes me a writer or not..

i don't really care. I used to dance my worries away as a kid....and since I dont do that anymore....this must be it.

it was the main reason anyways....so ill use the tumblr for when I cant speak YET...

and use this for what it was intended...

for me to talk through my tangled thought ad end up hopefully at clarity....