David Rudder is a Prophet. An Oracle. Madman Chant was written in 1996. FOURTEEN years ago!
It's as if he took a future snap shot with this song. After I get over the "Prophecy" of the lyrics I can pay attention to the obvious mastery of subtlety that is Charlie's Roots playing this song.
They do not over power the Instrument that is David's Voice but supplement it so well, so brilliantly.
I love Rudder because although his message is of the world....he speaks ALWAYS in the vernacular of Trinidad - always creating a a visual thats distinctly ours - so we KNOW he's speaking to us...OF us.
Who else would understand "A bullet start to wine and put an end to they joy??"
I want to take out a newspaper ad in Trinidad with just the lyrics of this song.
I miss him. I feel like we've disappointed him. His own people....have disappointed him by not giving him more...by not making him greater...and he's left us so we don't have to face that shame when we see him.
We didn't deserve him.
It's as if he took a future snap shot with this song. After I get over the "Prophecy" of the lyrics I can pay attention to the obvious mastery of subtlety that is Charlie's Roots playing this song.
They do not over power the Instrument that is David's Voice but supplement it so well, so brilliantly.
I love Rudder because although his message is of the world....he speaks ALWAYS in the vernacular of Trinidad - always creating a a visual thats distinctly ours - so we KNOW he's speaking to us...OF us.
Who else would understand "A bullet start to wine and put an end to they joy??"
I want to take out a newspaper ad in Trinidad with just the lyrics of this song.
I miss him. I feel like we've disappointed him. His own people....have disappointed him by not giving him more...by not making him greater...and he's left us so we don't have to face that shame when we see him.
We didn't deserve him.
Vote for we and we will set you free!
Anywhere you turn somebody chanting to we
Somebody promising jobs for all
Some renting gun to make other people bawl
But somebody promising more police car
Somebody going to take de country far
Somebody putting all de bandits away
We say, "If dey do the crime, dey going to damn well pay!"
But somebody promising human rights
While somebody threatening to put out yuh lights
The mortuary full with little Trinidad boys
A bullet start to wine and put an end to their joy
Now dey lying tall fuh dey Mama to mourn
Dey Nike gone, dey gold teeth gone
You see dey, dey want dey pocket full with blue, blue silk
Dey want dey statue drinking full cream milk
The little red silk is not dey true friend
De blue one had two extra nought on de end
So ah tag on dey toe is now dey ticket to hell
But look where we reach, well, well, well, well, well, well.
Ah hear a madman bawl as he spread out on a wall
He say, "Dis is it, dis is it, dis is it, I’ve been hit!
No time to give up brother, no time to quit!"
Was the chant of a madman, in this tale from a strange land
Give me the chant of de madman. It’s the only salvation
Ah say de chant of a madman, in this tale from a strange land
Give me the chant of the madman, Lord, is de only salvation.
Anywhere yuh turn somebody chanting to we
Vote for we and we go set you free
Somebody promising natural law
Die like a yogi, end all de war
Seek inner peace, end all de pain
De same woman promising to go down again
Somebody promising to run all de bread
Somebody pushing a world class head
Somebody clean out de weed well fast
But somebody letting de cocaine pass
Somebody promise to abolish de tax
Somebody promise to gih we de facts
Somebody promise to clean up de land
But in this clean land, rat still killin man
We bright little youths going to waste
Somebody dinge the smile on dey face
Somebody take “One Love” off de shelf
Den de One Love boys start to sell out dey self
Somebody going to end all dis talk about race
But dey cyah tell me dat with a straight, straight face
Big, big men dying, de crime cyah solve
A madman rant is mih only resolve
Ah hear de madman bawl
As he lie on a wall.
He say, "Dis is it, dis is it, dis is it, I’ve been hit!
But no time to give up, brother, no time to quit!"
A chant of a madman in this tale from a strange land
It was a chant of a madman, in dis tale from a strange land
Give me de chant of de madman. Is de only salvation.
In
Blog,
David Rudder
Repost!! Because I'm Back Here Today! Cure for Home Sickness - David Rudder - Song For a Lonely Soul
I get Homesick..often
In spite of the horror stories I read and hear about in Trinidad..
because as always Being home is a colored memory for me that may not always tie into the REALITY
I rely on my bloggers living in Trinidad to reconcile the Rose Colored Memory with the TRUTH of life at home..
But still i know in part that I live in illusion...
But some days I almost cry,
There is vice and evil everywhere..
Why not be in a place that requires no explanation of my needs and loves,
Of what is innate to me..?
That i can find joy in Just hearing a voice speak in a tone or say a phrase that can make my spirit warm ...?
Still some days I cry...
I miss the sounds of rain...
Somehow its different at home
I miss the smell of a temporarily clean world after the rain..
I love to hear men call out to each other in passing..
and unlike the sisters that Live there now..
I miss the little hail up from a random man in the street...
In our trini cadence...
"Ey Sweetness...."
[they might not be saying that now]
But Rudder Helps...in particular today
Song for a Lonely Soul...[how apropos]
Song For a Lonely SoulSoca music take me back to my island [x 4]Oh how I long for island breezes and to see..My woman roll like a steel drum solo ringing through a calypso nightDon’t get me wrong, this big city really made a man of meBut a concrete jungle drum can’t play no calypsoNo no noSoca music take me back to my island.
A mind excursion it can take meTo a far off country roadSticky mango juice, running down my naked chestAnd sturdy people who can still smile a mile into their painPut their shoulders to the wheelAnd their Gods will do the restAnd in the end, they will pass the testSoca music take me back to my island.
Trinity mountains, Trinity mountains calling me homeMaking me high, calling me home, making me highSing a soca melody, you can sing it and be freeSing a happy soca melody my friend, sing a soca melodyYou can sing it and be freeAnd in this freedom, there will be no endSoca music take me back to my island.
In particular for me...
growing up in Tobago, Signal Hill Alumni Choir was a pride and joy
To hear them sing , all genres, was a pore raising, awe inspiring , pride inducing thing.
My Mom worked with them when I was growing up...so I got to see the inner workings of the choir. Rehearsal was a treat..I would sit on the floor of the stage while they surrounded the piano..and John Arnold the director then would piece together the Complex melodies..and then the MOVES! Perfect!
I was lucky to perform with them , either in joint productions with my steelband, or with the dance company [Children's Academy of Dance...now TAPA and the now defunct NDTC] or representing Tobago in the Inter Island Cultural Shows..[haha..i remember dancing in a number, changing to play pan, and then changing back to go dance again..anyways ah Rambling..lol...follow the ramble]
The chorus behind Rudder is ALWAYS the Alumni Choir...regardless of who it really is..i think I heard them do this song once...it brought me to Tears..[I cry too damn much .maybe cause I'm Pisces..hahaha]. I see faces I know..and know me..And the music just seems Elevated here..
Ever Rudder..
More than Music and Melody..
Its like a Psalm..
Cooling to the senses..
He refers DIRECTLY to me..
Reverence to all the things that make MY Existence important and beautiful, My TRIN-BAGONIAN existence..
Thank you Rudder..
You restore me..
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Now playing: David Rudder - Song for a Lonely Soul
via FoxyTunes
In
Dance,
I Danced today
Overwhelmed by what felt like a flood gate of emotions...pressing on my heart, on my brain..
Ive missed it sooo much. SOO much.
and although my muscles hurt...my heart is so open now...a genuine emotion...a connection to something...
I danced till it hurt...the room disappeared...
How could I have stayed away so long from something that brings me so much pure joy??
Let it go..
the hurt..the anger..the anxiety...
let it go.
the internal struggle..the fight between your best and worse self..
drop it..
Let it fall to the wayside ....drop the heavy armor..
the protective shell that you use to maintain the tender inside that is your heart....
Don't deny yourself the possibility of JOY..
Don't deny yourself the moments of pure FEELING that will keep you joyous in the dark times..
Everyday we're reminded of how fragile, how tenuous this life can be..
Step on fear with your feet and your heart..
Crush it..
Grind it into the dirt where it belongs..
Live as if there is ONLY love....
Choose to be brave...
We have only this life...
You have only this ONE existence in which to be happy...
Chase Happy. FERVENTLY..doggedly..
pursue it as if it is the final destination..
You will bring others with you...
Because hope and joy is contagious...
It will scream to the universe that this is what you deserve...
It will color you life in hues of wonder and awe...
You deserve it. We Deserve it.
Call it to you...
Scream it into the universe..
Joy.
Joy.
Joy.Joy.
the hurt..the anger..the anxiety...
let it go.
the internal struggle..the fight between your best and worse self..
drop it..
Let it fall to the wayside ....drop the heavy armor..
the protective shell that you use to maintain the tender inside that is your heart....
Don't deny yourself the possibility of JOY..
Don't deny yourself the moments of pure FEELING that will keep you joyous in the dark times..
Everyday we're reminded of how fragile, how tenuous this life can be..
Step on fear with your feet and your heart..
Crush it..
Grind it into the dirt where it belongs..
Live as if there is ONLY love....
Choose to be brave...
We have only this life...
You have only this ONE existence in which to be happy...
Chase Happy. FERVENTLY..doggedly..
pursue it as if it is the final destination..
You will bring others with you...
Because hope and joy is contagious...
It will scream to the universe that this is what you deserve...
It will color you life in hues of wonder and awe...
You deserve it. We Deserve it.
Call it to you...
Scream it into the universe..
Joy.
Joy.
Joy.Joy.
:). k? K. :)
Last night somebody told me that you would be in town
I opened up my eyes and you were staring me down
I often think about the last times we spent together
Ummm hmmmmm
And sometimes
When no one was around and its just me
You serve a special parted memory
[x2:]
It's our dream to see
(oh baby)
You here with me
(I miss you)
After all this time
You're still fine
(Girl let's chill)
For the Weekend
(For the Weekend babe, I'd like to chill for the weekend)
This morning
I awake to find you next to me
Holding a long convesation over a green tea baby
we speak about the love before
Night before
And its killing me
(no way)
I Gotta let you leave
(Although)
But at least we know
That We made another memory
Of the Way you
Let me love you
Hold You
You've got me so in love
[Chorus:]
It's our dream to see
You here with me
(I miss you)
After all this time
(baby)
You're still fine
For the Weekend
(you and I)
I thank the man above
For my Weekend Love
[x2:]
It's our dream to see
You here with me
(can you believe)
After all this time
You're still fine
(on my mind)
For the Weekend
(So let's do you and me for the Week-end)
Baby that would be alright
I love this song. The resonance of Black Thoughts voice is so piercing...and the hook is a haunting floating gem of need and yearning and strength. The Roots are forever my go to band for authentic hip hop. My brand of hip hop. I wish they would come to Florida sometime..In fact I have a whole list of artists that never come to my side of town..sigh..Maybe I should start a petition.
This song though always beings back a memory of a guy that was never mine. lol. No seriously...I created a faux relationship in my head. And Yes i KNEW it was all imaginary. But in my HEAD this is what he would sing for me.
The Real situation was...he was a friend..who knew I was in a bad relationship...and would give me advice on how to deal with my impending heartbreak. As always...women transfer feelings ..when in truth he was just being a good friend.
I wonder if he ever figured out i had created this imaginary BLACK LOVE fest in my head..with him as Lead!???
Girls Are weird.
Chorus] x 2
(Erykah Badu)
If you were worried 'bout where
I been or who I saw or
what club I went to with my homies
baby don't worry you know that you got me
[Verse 1]
(Black Thought)
Somebody told me that this planet was small
we use to live in the same building on the same floor
and never met before
until I'm overseas on tour
and peep this ethiopian queen from philly
taking classes abroad
she studying film and photo flash focus record
said she workin on a flick and
could my click do the score
she said she loved my show in paris
at elise momarre
and that I stepped off the stage
and took a piece of her heart
we knew from the start that
things fall apart, intentions shatter
she like that shit don't matter
when I get home get at her
through letter, phone, whatever
let's link, let's get together
shit you think not, think the Thought went home and forgot
time passed, we back in philly now she up in my spa
tellin me the things I'm tellin her is makin her hot
startin buildin with her constantly round the clock
now she in my world like hip-hop
and keep tellin me
[Chorus] x2
[Verse 2]
(Black Thought)
Yo, I'm the type that's always catchin a flight
and sometimes I gotta be out at the height of the night
and that's when she flip and get on some 'ol
(Eve)
Another lonely night
seems like I'm on the side you only loving your mic
I know you gotta get that paper daddy keep that shit tight
but yo I need some sort of love in my life, you dig me
while politicin with my sister from new york city
she said she know this ball player and he think I'm pretty
sike, I'm playin boo, you know it's just wit you I'm stayin boo
and when cats be poppin game I don't hear what they sayin boo
when you out there in the world, I'm still your girl
with all my classes I don't have the time for life's thrills
so when you sweatin on stage think of me when you rhyme
and don't be listenin to your homies they be leavin you blind
(Black Thought)
Yeah, so what you sayin I can trust you?
(Female Voice)
Is you crazy, you my king for real
(Both)
But sometimes relationships get ill
(Female Voice)
No doubt
[Chorus] x2
[Verse 3]
(Black Thought)
Thet snake could be that chick
and that rat could be that cool cat
that's whispering "she tryin to play you for the fool Black"
if something's on your chest then let it be known
see I'm not your every five minutes all on the phone
and on the topic of trust, it's just a matter of fact
that people bite back and fracture what's intact
and they'll forever be I ain't on some "oh I'm a celebrity"
I deal with the real so if it's artificial let it be
I've seen people caught in love like whirlwinds
listening to they squads and listening to girlfriends
that's exactly the point where they whole world ends
lies come in, that's where that drama begins, she like
[Chorus]
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” ~ Neil Gaiman
I love a man...
Its been a markedly long time since I could say that.
When I say this...
I say it unabashedly
No pride, No thought..No doubt.
I love this man...and it is doomed.
Doomed because the similarities go beyond generic shit like food, and music..
but converge on ethical choices, unspoken memories, irrational fears..even un-shared experiences.
Deep Shit.
It's Doomed...
because neither can pull the other out of that space that spells "Safe"
Cling to a pseudo relationship that is more ephemeral,
possibly imagined, un-physical....and still,
Shockingly..one of the most satisfying that I have ever had in my life.
Feeds that creative pig of mine that claims to want the things
not of the physical...the psychic connection,
the existential,symbiotic relationship.
Still.
It is a steady diet of denial
content to be miserable, lonely, yearning
Because I cannot, WILL not face the possibility
that HE is not what MY love should be...
We Pisces need to be miserable to be happy.
Shifting. Daily. On a pendulum of doubt and hope...
Let him go...Tell you heart to Let him Go.
Deny new contacts,new energies
Afraid to give up on the possibility of One..
A selfish self-flagellation.
Intentionally crushing the energies that seek mine.
A cosmic toy.
A perfect gadget..
Discarded until a memory triggers a fleeting need for it.
SHE WHO WILL NOT BE LOVED
should transform into...
She who will LET someone love her...
No REALIST can live in the land of WHAT COULD BE forever...
My heart's imagination cannot conjure a love song forever...
Its been a markedly long time since I could say that.
When I say this...
I say it unabashedly
No pride, No thought..No doubt.
I love this man...and it is doomed.
Doomed because the similarities go beyond generic shit like food, and music..
but converge on ethical choices, unspoken memories, irrational fears..even un-shared experiences.
Deep Shit.
It's Doomed...
because neither can pull the other out of that space that spells "Safe"
Cling to a pseudo relationship that is more ephemeral,
possibly imagined, un-physical....and still,
Shockingly..one of the most satisfying that I have ever had in my life.
Feeds that creative pig of mine that claims to want the things
not of the physical...the psychic connection,
the existential,symbiotic relationship.
Still.
It is a steady diet of denial
content to be miserable, lonely, yearning
Because I cannot, WILL not face the possibility
that HE is not what MY love should be...
We Pisces need to be miserable to be happy.
Shifting. Daily. On a pendulum of doubt and hope...
Let him go...Tell you heart to Let him Go.
Deny new contacts,new energies
Afraid to give up on the possibility of One..
A selfish self-flagellation.
Intentionally crushing the energies that seek mine.
A cosmic toy.
A perfect gadget..
Discarded until a memory triggers a fleeting need for it.
SHE WHO WILL NOT BE LOVED
should transform into...
She who will LET someone love her...
No REALIST can live in the land of WHAT COULD BE forever...
My heart's imagination cannot conjure a love song forever...
Maybe a dude who works really hard to make you smile....
DAILY.....
sometimes at great personal pain....
Shouldnt be banished to the further regions of the netherworld by SHE WHO WILL NOT BE LOVED!!!!
#just saying
:)
So hard to breathe this air that we call love,
Aint nothing worse than the hurt we receive from love,
When you get hurt by the one you living for,
Pain can make you wanna love no more,
[Chorus]
Loving you no more,
I just I cant I just can’t be loving you no more,
I love you more than I love myself,
(x2)
Hurt with the heart thats bleeding slowly,
So many lonely sleepless nights,
Im going through hell to convince you love me,
But never her approval no matter how I try,
The way you talk to me but still I say I love you,
I’m ashamed you can see it in my eyes,
Momma always told me to respect the woman,
But what am I to do when her parents do not try,
So many tears I cried,
But all for nothing I’m afraid to say,
Oooooohhh
[Chorus]
I’ve been so dependent on your love for so long,
Punishment for me is trying to let go,
Give it from your heart is what you taught me,
Lyrics courtesy of killerhiphop.com
Addiction to pain is what it got me,
My life, now its changed,
My life aint the same as you are,
Heartbroken, to the point sometimes wanna end it,
If I can’t have what mean most to me,
So many tears I cried,
But all for nothing I’m afraid to say,
[Chorus]
[Drake]
Uh, trying not to over think
Only cause I’ve drove and I done had a lot to drink
When I wanted it blue you said we got to paint it pink
And there’s pieces of ya hair still sittin in my sink
And you still got underwear that’s sittin in the dryer
How come every time that you’re suspicious I’m a liar?
You stand out, I can hear you whistle in a choir
And that’s the only reason you the Mrs. I admire
Damn. Tell me what I’m gone do
Since everything I’m trying to forget is all true
Me and all your main girls get along too
I would take my last dollar out and bet it on you
But ahhhhh, you see the same one I’m missing
Is basically the reason I became something different
And just that I remember me before
And if you could do the same baby then we’ll be for sure
[Chorus]
Loving you no more,
I just I cant I just can’t be loving you no more,
I love you more than I love myself,
(x2)
you know they say that life has to have balance....and to be blessed in One area of your life...most likely there is a gap somewhere else.
I believe that...
thats not even th point of this ....ramble.
Age is a Bitch.
It shows you all the shit you coulda done...based on your own potential.
Potential that is BETTER REVEALED TO TO YOU AFTER the opportunities to develop them may have escaped you...
aint that a bitch??
im not saying that thats whats happened to me...or im stuck in the limbo of unrealized drems...
but you finally realize what they mean when they say youth is wasted on the young...
Anyways..
Im realizing..that the closer i come to knowing what i want...
is the more i realize..
that shit just may not happen...
it takes all the magic out of existence sometimes...
It messes up your connections with people...
because they will never be to you ...what you USED to PRAY they were....
or you would be ...
to them..
and that...
my friend..
is HEARTBREAKING!!
it takes all the color out of moments that you believed were magic...
and turned everything to ....dusty grey flat drudging ...
nothingness...
NOTHINGNESS is heartbreaking...
steups.
I believe that...
thats not even th point of this ....ramble.
Age is a Bitch.
It shows you all the shit you coulda done...based on your own potential.
Potential that is BETTER REVEALED TO TO YOU AFTER the opportunities to develop them may have escaped you...
aint that a bitch??
im not saying that thats whats happened to me...or im stuck in the limbo of unrealized drems...
but you finally realize what they mean when they say youth is wasted on the young...
Anyways..
Im realizing..that the closer i come to knowing what i want...
is the more i realize..
that shit just may not happen...
it takes all the magic out of existence sometimes...
It messes up your connections with people...
because they will never be to you ...what you USED to PRAY they were....
or you would be ...
to them..
and that...
my friend..
is HEARTBREAKING!!
it takes all the color out of moments that you believed were magic...
and turned everything to ....dusty grey flat drudging ...
nothingness...
NOTHINGNESS is heartbreaking...
steups.
Lupe.Fiasco. Streets. On. Fire.
this barrage of .......talented men...that I've been sharing on these few days.....is a lead up to something...
when i get there..I hope I can share....