you know they say that life has to have balance....and to be blessed in One area of your life...most likely there is a gap somewhere else.
I believe that...
thats not even th point of this ....ramble.
Age is a Bitch.
It shows you all the shit you coulda done...based on your own potential.
Potential that is BETTER REVEALED TO TO YOU AFTER the opportunities to develop them may have escaped you...

aint that a bitch??
im not saying that thats whats happened to me...or im stuck in the limbo of unrealized drems...
but you finally realize what they mean when they say youth is wasted on the young...

Anyways..
Im realizing..that the closer i come to knowing what i want...
is the more i realize..
that shit just may not happen...
it takes all the magic out of existence sometimes...
It messes up your connections with people...
because they will never be to you ...what you USED to PRAY they were....
or you would be ...
to them..

and that...
my friend..

is HEARTBREAKING!!

it takes all the color out of moments that you believed were magic...
and turned everything to ....dusty grey flat drudging ...
nothingness...

NOTHINGNESS is heartbreaking...

steups.